What does it mean to be 2 years sober

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On December 11, 2018 I’ll be officially 2 years sober, which technically means I haven’t had a drink of alcohol for 2 years. But what does it really mean to me to be 2 years sober? It has meant the total upheaval of my life as I knew it, while maintaining my commitment to managing my problems without numbing or avoiding.

It has been the most difficult and most rewarding experience of my life and I would hands down, recommend it for you if you are newly sober or considering becoming sober. I can tell you for sure it is not what you might expect, but it is totally worthwhile, no matter what your experience might be. Why? Because it is impossible to live your best life, if you avoid being present for it, with the distraction of the drug alcohol. Despite how it might make you feel initially, it does not enhance your experience. It takes you away from it. Over time, alcohol robs you of your genuine and joyful life. Sobriety, gives it back to you.

Today, as I think about wrapping up my second year, I feel grief and joy. My life has changed so significantly. I not only quit drinking, but I quit my job, changed my relationships with friends and family, went back to school, started a new business, brought back yoga and just recently, got a new puppy. It is sad to let go of what I once thought my life was, to make space for what my life is becoming. It is exciting to know that change is possible and that I have to the power within me to change a lot of things for the better. I didn’t used to feel this way. I used to feel stuck and depressed, a lot.

On December 11th, I probably won’t do anything significant to celebrate the two-year mark. There is an expression in the recovery community about ‘creating a life you don’t have to escape from’. I want to embrace that day, the same as I do every other day now. It is not always easy but each day is full of health and hope. This is a life I do not want to escape from. Each day is a celebration.

There is also an expression in the community that says “sobriety is a rebellious act” which I agree is true. It takes a strong and independent person to go against the grain. People will not always understand and support you in your decision to quit drinking. But know this - you have my full support. The decision to choose health and be your best self is the best way to go.

I’m proud to be a sober person, who is improving her life and the lives of the people I love most. I am also trying to help other people who want to do the same thing. If you want to talk about this, please connect with me!